let that be enough

he almost lost me. he has several times in fact.
but I don't walk away although maybe I should. after all it is,
what makes sense. on one hand I guess.
on the other it doesn't.

it's hard to love sometimes. as jesus asks.
love is patient, love is kind, it keeps no record of wrongs.
so I put it off for another day, another season.
forgiveness imparts and moving on takes shelter,
for a while.

but then it whispers.
are things good? or as they should?
why can I not escape this place. why can I not walk away,
bury it and simply leave it behind.

should it matter that it's different?
should it matter that I've waited on God.
maybe not.
but it is true. I have.
it matters.

it has been on the brink for quite some time now.
stay? or leave.
tell him why. or disappear?
forever, for good.

would I even be missed or noticed?
of course. eventually. i'd hope.
does leaving admit defeat? or does it acknowledge something greater.

for now I will resign.
myself to the day, and all that it brings. to know that I am loved by someone is enough.

let that be enough.