turning the corner

I have a heart that's pretty soft. I guess that could mean that I love and care deeply, but also feel hurt, pain or sadness pretty easily at times too. Do I give the impression that I have my life in order? I apologize, that is simply not the case. God and I have been working things out...so life is definitely getting better. But life still affects. I wish sometimes I could care less, about life situations, about people. Sounds strange I know, does that suprise you? I guess with a soft heart is the willingness to be vunerable. But vunerability opens up the door to hurt, disappointment, rejection....also blessing I won't forget that it does open the way to that. I realize this is the way God created me. I wish though that I could sometimes turn it off. But I can't. It sometimes wears me out. I'm a little worn out. God's taking me through this avenue, but I wouldn't mind turning the corner soon. Seven and a half weeks until camp, maybe that's the corner.